Knowing isn't believing.

I'm being used and I know this for a fact, the sad part is I won't stop. I won't walk away. What have I done. What have I gotten myself into. Why did I have to meet you right when everything was starting to get better? I sit there and see all the girls, see all the lies your telling to every single one of them including me. I see you using us like we are a use once and throw away item. I see this and I still don't realize that I should leave. I hate this. Everyone has a down fall but I never tell I'm on mine until everything is gone. I've changed. I don't like it.

Maybe letting him go was a terrible, terrible mistake.

Its amazing how I can do so much bad and not feel anything...

I hate this.
I hate who I am.
I hate how I can't say no.
I hate how my heart is every where.
I hate how the lust inside of me will do what ever it please.
I hate this so much....

Best Friends, Total strangers

It's sickening how we act like strangers now.

If I can't find love I go for lust.

It's been a while in this short time.

I haven't written a blog since the day that it all fell apart. A lot has happened, actually so much It feels like a life time. I told you everything. I told you how I was in love with you, I told you how I can't live with out you, I told you how your my world, the air I breathe, I told you that you were my everything. It's amazing how once I let all my feelings out to you, they seem to have disappeared. You're so different it sickens me. And maybe it's just me but I can't beleive the way you've been acting this past week. It's amazing how in one year I could think of a million reasons why I was in love with you but now it only took me one week to forget all those reasons. I guess it's safe to say that I have moved on. That I don't love you anymore. A week ago I would give anything just to be yours again. Now I would give anything just for you to be my friend again. I don't understand it.

Love dies along with friendship I guess.